Things are getting much better here. I feel like i am starting to find my feet slowly. I am starting to feel that three kids are the norm. The strangeness is lifting.
I am so grateful that i have everyday help. I know that i am really one of the very few people who have been lucky enough to have a full time maid when all three of my kids are babies. At least in the craziness of the last six weeks i have been lucky enough not to worry about cleaning up. Every day my lovely domestic arrives at 8am. I lie in bed and hear the dishes clinking in the kitchen sink. By the time i get up the kitchen is clean and i am able to make my morning coffee without the chaos from the night before. Better still my nanny will also happily take Lily from me and entertain her while i eat breakfast in peace.
I can leave her with her while i am able to have a quiet shower and even run off to the shops. At the end of the day my house is spotless, i have had an hour or two to myself and the family is happy. I have been so lucky to have all this support through all three of my early baby days. I often chat to people living in other countries and dont have this support system. I have so much respect for these moms. I dont know how they are cope and am aware of how lucky i am.
There are still some prickles along the way. I find that Lily is very much an arms baby. She doesnt want to put down even when sleeping so i end up carrying her around a lot. This really ties up my time. I am reading a lot and end up watching TV but feel frustrated that i cant do more crafts or activities. Thankfully she is sleeping well so i feel good in the day. But i cant translate that into productivity as Miss is constantly in my arms.
I have also been struggling with the boys lately and feel like my patience is running out. They seem so noisy and loud. I feel like i spend my life telling them not to jump near their sister, not to shout when i have just got her to sleep. And Gabriel seems to be constantly testing the boundaries, trying his luck with me. He is driving me crazy. I know i just need to wait for this stage to pass..
But the prickles are getting less..... Nothing like a good nights sleep to put things into perspective.